Friday, September 11, 2009

Fake hopes from God !

Why are GOD always giving me fake hopes?
It happens since the day I was brought to this world.
Everytime when there's a hope for something,eventually it will just disappeared for some reasons.
All of my hopes only led to the disappointment of myself.
It seems difficult to have what I desired.
Someone told me that God has a better path for me but I don't if see any.
I ain't the only one who doubted that the existence of God.
Since life is so unfair , if God really exist then why does God allowed all this to happen?
So why bother to wait for miracles?
I don't really believe in fate that controls over everything of one's life.
I think I'd be able to change my own destinies instead of following to what is destined like an instruction of computer which have been pre-programmed earlier before born.
Life has never been easy before.
The harder I fight for myself, the harder life fights me back.
Thus,I never bother to demand anything from my parents as the answer is just simply NO.
Might as well as work hard and get it for myself.
At least,I'm contented with things I've earned hard for.
If there's a will,there's a way - quote that inspires my life a lot.

Breaking Dawn.

Was burnin' midnite oil for the coming paper.
And now the dawn is breaking.
Time to go for an early breakfast.
But not Dim Sum anymore.
I'd rather go mamak.
Went for Dim Sum the other day with my roommate.
Well,it was my first time of eating at Kam Ling,Kampar after 3years.
Not a good one though but still edible I guess.
And slightly pricey.
After all,I still prefer those Dim Sum in Ipoh - Foh San, Ming Court and Yoke Fook Moon.
Ipoh food is still the best !

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

2nd Battle Ends.

There goes my 2nd paper today.
I think I've flunked this subject due to the questions.
It's not that I'm not well prepared enough but the questions that came out today was really tough and most of us were shocked when we looked at it.
Totally out of our expectation if compare to the past years question papers.
D' ask me to be positive,I wished to.Lol
Nuff said,there will be 2more paper left and then declare holiday !

Thursday, September 3, 2009

My Final Destination

Struck with sudden fear as I am still awake at this moment where everyone else is sleeping silently and comfortably. The day that we have all been waiting for has arrived. My schedule began with the language paper that pressures me a lot. This would be the one and only chance that I could boost up my grade point as high as possible. There were no other subjects that I could obtain a distinction except for this. Perhaps there is a least chance but I would rather not to take the risk.

I have done enough of mistakes for my past and would not allow the history to repeat once again.My mind recalled back to all my other failures. I admit that my past was never impressive for those who knew me. The test had arrived like within a blink of an eye and I still did not feel prepared for it. There are three more papers waiting ahead of me where the real challenge begins.I felt tired but I can barely close my eyes to sleep.Tonight would be the beginning of my restless mind until I had reach my final destination but definitely this is not my death trip.


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